Sereivuth

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 18:04:13 GMT

I'm not liking this day off from shooting. I've just been so free and happy in this fairy taled couple of weeks. I don't want to wake up!
But now, all i'm thinking about now is when it's going to be over and when i'm stepping back into the realm of reality. Namely, WORK! Damn! when this week is over i'm going to have to go back to my suck ass job! :-( I wanna cry!

and....action!

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 13:04:47 GMT

It's the fourth day of shoot. Why do i post about the fourth day, you ask? What's the significance of the fourth day of shoot? There isn't any, i just simply forgot that i have a livejournal that i should post once in awhile. Although, any day of a shoot would be considered significant.

The first days of shoot have been so much fun, i can't see myself wanting to do anything else but this. For the most part cast and crew have been nothing less than SPECTACULAR SPECTACULAR! Although, i can do without the drive through Boston in the morning to get to Dorchester. Man traffic sucks! Anyways, the drive to Dorchester yesterday morning made me think about the tv show "GROWING PAINS"...YES "GROWING PAINS". You remember the episode where Kirk Cameron, aka Mike Seaver, drives to NY and landed a small one line policeman role. Only to have his line taken out when the scene was shot. I don't know why i was thinking about that, but yeah that was going through my mind most of the drive. I mean, i'm pretty sure they aren't going to cut out my lines.

Anyway's gotta get going. Long drive to Dorchester.

sleepless in lowell

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 08:45:07 GMT

SHIT! This must be pretty bad wehn it's 3:30 in the mornaing and i'm up writing in my journal. Not a whole lot on my mind, just for some unknown reason sleep just seems to fail me. Actually it's been like this for a couple of weeks now. Don't know what it is....

Anyways, it's official i got one of the lead roles for the independent movie. We begin shooting on the 12th of Feb. Exciting! Maybe that's why i can't sleep, perhaps i'm just filled with anticipation and anxiety. I don't know!

Well, anyways i hope everyone is doing fine. Man i wish i had more time, and maybe if it wasn't so god damn cold, i would actually make it out, but in anycase surely i have missed you guys.

tired!!!!!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 01:19:49 GMT

30 hours of Mass general and a horrible indegestion. I've always hated hospital, but after the last two days that hate has been extentuated. But, my little brother is feeling much better after a very successful surgery in which they removed a tumor in his adrenal gland. Couldn't help but think throughout the waiting process that it should have been me that needed a surgery.

Roaming around the outskirts of MGH looking for a CVS, damn..where were all the Alka Seltzers when i needed them?!
Having to deal with a very small uncomfortable couch that would only fit half of me to sleep in and half witted nurses aid and doctors who's punctuality was left behind....

Glad to be home!

Stoooop!

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 19:12:52 GMT

It can stop snowing at anytime now! NO really, you can stop!

I think this is way more that what is needed!

Hey fda-approved did you get some out there too?

Movie?!

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 18:58:05 GMT

So, my first round of auditions went really well, director told me that I had the best reading for one of the lead roles in an independent film called "Interrogation", and i even got a script to take home. So, now it's time to study the script and break it down. And I am suppose to meet again sometime this week, with a guy that might play the part of Detective Quinn, director wants to see our chemistry.

Excited? You bet!

So let's just keep my fingers crossed, and hope for the bloody best. I mean this could be the start of something. Possible indie film and a director with LA and Boston connections.

talking dog!

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 04:57:11 GMT

ok...one down and two to go! It's really sad that we only perform 3 times....wish the performances wouldn't be so transient. I mean why not extend it for another...oh i don't know...how about another MONTH! anyways after about 2 months of rehearsal...agonizing rehearsals at that, it's finally showtime, and i have to say...WE ROCKED! Man, i dont' think there is a better feeling than finishing a show in front of a live audience. It's like it's this...this...great CATHARSIS! I mean, after a couple of months of just rehearsal after rehearsal and anticipation and anxiety, it just all comes together, but unfortunately disappears. But, i have to feel the anxiety and nervousness all over again, tomorrow when close to curtain call comes along, where i'm all sweaty and constantly having to go to the bathroom. I'd have so many infants laughing at me if they knew, yeah it's that bad!

Well, now it's time to bed....so you all have a good night and hopefully i'll see some of you guys soon.

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 04:08:58 GMT

hmmmfff!

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 03:12:38 GMT

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!!!!!...I hate the RED SOX! Why won't they just go away. It's killing me because i really think they are going to come back and win the goddamn series.

ache-xhausted...

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 15:25:02 GMT

Woke up this morning to a massive ache in my body, made worse by a feeling of extreme exhaust. So whatever plans i have tonight for going to manray, i might have to put on hold. Which is a bummer because i really wanted to see some of you, but in anycase there's always tomorrow and the day after and the day after that...etc... etc.... etc.

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 07:11:17 GMT

damn it! my ignition key broke in half, and now i've locked myself out of my car, because my half-key will not allow me to unlock the damn doors. my damn cell phone is in there as is my wallet. i think i might have to break into my own car. half my key is still in the ignition, wonder how much this is going to cost to fix!

king.......

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 06:03:59 GMT

So i havent' told anyone this yet, well, except for the Darla, but i have been doing a children's adaptation to the King and I. Just a simple small production for a children's summer camp, but this has surely been one of the most enjoyable experiences i've ever had. We are one and a half week into rehearsal and we've only got another 4 days left before the curtains go up. So if anyones' been wondering why i havent' been out, it's because of 8 hour rehearsals in the morning followed by work 'til 11:30pm, so yeah, my schedule is full.

Don't we all have to start somewhere? I'm playing the King of Siam, this is only my DREAM ROLE, so i dont' care how small the production is, i'm going to make the most of it(Mr. brynner, i hope i make you proud). The cast is filled with the most adorable collection of kids i've ever met in my life, and the girl that will be playing Mrs. Anna is a most precocious fifteen year old actress i've ever met. I'm sure you will be seeing her in some future performances!

So if anyone is interested in seeing yours truly as the King of Siam, i encourage you to show up. The play will be held on the 23rd, that's this Friday at 2pm, at the MCC Cyber Theater, on, I believe 5 Davidson Street in Lowell. It'll be right across the street from the Lowell Memorial Auditorium.

If yo can, stop by, because i garantee it to be a blast!

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 05:58:49 GMT

Ok..CONVIENCY! This is a wonderful thing, being able to go to a goth club 5 minutes away from my house, saves me on gas, money, time and even more importantly MONEY.

Even though it was a slow night-granted it has only been going on for 2 weeks- it certainly has promise. The layout of the room is pretty cool, even though it is about half the size of manray. Dance floor, cool, not as sticky as "Hell" and not as slippery as the "bat cave".

But seriously folks, please please, less pretentiousness. The name of the night alone was more pretentious then anything i've ever heard, "Dark Intentions?" Ah NO! The manager is walking around with a bloody cape and fangs, and most of the peeps are wearing spiked armed- whatever! But i'm not saying they aren't nice peeps, but just less pretentiousness, por favor. Most of them were like Vlad the Impaler.

The music- well, i was able to dance to one song but that's because i am really picky when it comes to music to dance to, so i'd rather not comment because i'm sure there are people that might have found it to be a really good set. But, in my case, please just alittle more stompy stuff!

But like i said, conviency.....and i hope it works out because, honestly, i'm really tired of driving back and forth to Boston.

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 03:19:07 GMT

So i'm off to see what it's like at this goth club in lowell- yeah i know! Lowell- Goth?!

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 06:16:46 GMT

another lame saturday night. went to a wedding and spent way to much money on it. but i got some good news, and no i didn't save alot on my car insurance, but i found out, apparently, there is a goth night here, in lowell, on saturday nights. i remember someone from manray telling me that there was one but i can't seem to remember who told me. but i didn't want to believe it, but yeah i guess it's true. guess i should check it out soon.

parade....

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 19:47:08 GMT

i dont' think i'll ever do a parade again! this was a last minute thing, and unorganized last-minute thing for my TKD school. I had to wear a tiger mask and parade around in it, no pun intended. it would have been ok, except i could hardly see, and i had all these people telling me ot do flips and kicks. kicks i could manage but the flips, yeah ok! and the slight rain didn't help matters, trying to jump around and kick on wet cement, i was lucky i didn't fall and crack my head open.

so next year if i'm involved, i think i'm going to drive a float.

WEEEEEE...

Thu, 01 Jul 2004 08:37:54 GMT

yaaaaaay, to talking to the wee hours of the night. i love this, this wednesday after manray with the "Darla" and James, Rochelle and Besha and a new friend Ian thing is becoming a tradition...but all good things must come to an end, because tha "mohawk man" is leaving. me wants to cry now.

OH YEAH! damn it, i can't be considered a goth because i have an open mind! oh well! i'll just be unclassified ME! i can live with that.

totally made me forget about the $20 ticket i got earlier today while delivering food. man to think that people would have a heart, and she even saw me run into the store, and 10 seconds after, i came out and she was writing up a fucking ticket. unst-beknown it was for me. i was about to take off and she tells me "Don't leave without your ticket!" I was like what the fuck, are you serious? you just saw me run in there and you didnt' say anything to me?
FUCKING METER LADY! POWER TRIP MUCH, DO YA?

aighhhht!

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 06:21:32 GMT

it always makes me nervous to hit a hip-hop club after a tragic incident, but you know what i'm kinda glad i went out tonight. i really didn't care to give a shit about the looks i got and the hard attitude that was being portrayed. i went, i had fun and that's all that mattered.

Fri, 25 Jun 2004 07:32:26 GMT

i can never get use to it.. "hey this is life, this is what goes on"..dont' tell me that shit..

two nights ago, i had a nightmare. it was me and 4 of my old friends, inside a room and planning out a robbery of some jewelry store. the robbery went bad and two of my friends were shot to death and the other 2 got caught, but i managed to escape.
Now, back to reality, i drive past my old friends house and nearly stopped to warn them of the dream that i had, but i figured that they would totally dismiss it.

it's been rather quiet, or maybe i've been out of the scene for so long, i'm just totally clueless on what's going on. but something yearned inside me, telling me something was about to happen...there's the quiet before the storm, and the storm is about to hit.

Sure enough, someone was shot point blank today..and now the summer has officially started..with retaliation a must..sirens now will be the music of the night and police harrasment will quadruple..

the repressed memories of similar situations now surfaced once again. a few summers ago, i walked out of my house, two minutes later, someone was shot dead right across the street. my own cousin being shot by my own. i can't look outside my kitchen window because just beyond, next to the railroad tracks, Sweet Pea was shot to death. now all the pain is slowly working it's way back, the pain i've worked so hard to kill. it doesnt' matter anymore, whether it's someone i know or not, when it happens, every pain and memory shoots through my veins and sends a shot right to the most vulnerable of all spot....the heart!

When the hell does this shit fucking end?

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 06:48:01 GMT

i guess somethings are better left unknown, damn! sure is going to make it a long night tonight....

first date...

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 06:41:19 GMT

So i decided to take Douglas's advise and move on. Don't get caught standing still.

I had a date tonight, it's about a year since, that's about right, and i think this one actually likes guys (hmm, i wonder who i could be talking about;-)). Man did it feel strange, because i don't date on a practical manner I was lost on what to do and all that shite. So i decided to just be me and let it flow and not follow any rules of dating. Are their rules of dating? Well if there are, then hell, i wouldnt' know what the hell they are.

It went really nice.....

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 07:29:55 GMT

got in some dancing....
worked off a good sweat....
finally told "Cuteness" how i felt, still not sure if that was a good idea or not...
got a positive response, but...
and yes, you peeps, it will be on for hip-hop night....
now catch some zzz'z, so i'm up and ready in the morning to get my arse whipped....
goodnight....

hmmm...

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 06:02:15 GMT

hmmm! how was it possible that i learned how to do the C-Walk on reggae night at a hip-hop club? Sometimes you just gotta play dumb, as i did tonight. i mean i know how to dance to hip-hop, but I was going around on the dance floor, gothed out, and asking women to teach me how to dance. Ok, some turned away but there were a few that was cool. People stop being so serious and have a little fun! At least tonight i didn't have some random person come up to me and tell me that i'm giving asians or, rather,Cambodians a bad name. i was out to have fun....and.....Mission accomplished! There is hope after all!

bella noche....

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 08:38:42 GMT

oh what a beautiful night tonight has been.
the bella morte show was outstanding, and they are just as good as the first time i've seen them, three total. I'm so happy they played "christina", that's my favorite song from them, ya see.
the end of the night was special to me, because i got to spend some time with 4 wonderful people just conversating about wonderful things. thank you James, Rochelle, Besha and of course Darla. i wish there were people here, in Lowell, that i can sit down and have nice conversations with....anyways enough of my problems.
funny, the only bad thing about tonight delt with "cuteness", because she's always a good thing. well it wasnt' all that bad, but i really didn't want to meet her "boyfriend"...ouch! i think i just pushed the knife in alittle deeper. i think at some point or another i'm gonna have to tell her how i feel.

well time for some zzzz'z....long day of work ahead tomorrow.

WHOA-LEE PIZZA!!!!

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 04:40:33 GMT

WHOLEY SHITE! I just ate part of the biggest pizza i've ever seen in my life. This thing had to be at least 2 ft in diameter. yeah filled with chicken, mushroom, tomatoes, brocoli(?) and i think there was onion too, not only was it huge but it was really good. i didn't want to eat it, i was in awe of it's size, i just wanted to look at the fucker.
Anyways, yeah, a bunch of us from tkd got together after tae kwon do class and had a wittle party consisting of the huge pizza i just mentioned, a Bruce Lee flick and ice cream. It was fun until cat allergy decided to kick in, two stupip cats causing me to sneeze, a runny nose, now my eyes are all puffy, red and itchy! Not to mention my seasonal allergies combined! Arggggggghhhhhhh a los gatos!
oh yeah i'm also learning to speak Portuguese with my new co-workers...
eu estou fala portuguese, i think the fala part might be wrong tho....heehee